Today was my last day at the present (now former) job.
Though I’ve been trying to leave almost since I arrived, it is still rather bittersweet to be finally departing from my job. There were things I enjoyed about it, mostly the people, who were largely very friendly, especially those on the specific Catholic chat channel (yes, there was one of those: it was a big company and I imagine there were quite a few specialist channels on the Teams system).
One positive I gained from the job was a sense that “oh, people aren’t always going to be hostile and horrible to me.” Something I keep needing to re-learn, since the contrary lesson was rather firmly ingrained in my brain during my formative years at school. I had the chance to push a bit, try my strength in social settings, and so on, and for that I’m grateful.
It also gave me a chance to finally get out on my own again…as well as a reminder of why I wanted to leave the corporate world in the first place. And in the process gave me a chance to confront and start to more systematically deal with my psych issues (while also aggravating them in some ways).
I think the thing I’m most grateful for is the way the experience taught me to trust in God; that I should let go of how I want things to be and trust that He will bring me through. Long ways to go on this, but I’ve made a beginning and this experience has directed my attention to it in an especial way.
In any case, I’m thankful for what I got out of it, even if I hope I never have to work there or anywhere like it again.
And so begins a new phase in my life. We’ll see how this turns out.