1. The past few months have felt strangely repetitive and empty. I seem to have fallen onto a psychological cycle wherein little is done, but the same patterns repeat. I haven't written much lately, though constantly intending to. I find myself unable to relax into any kind of work, that is, to let go of … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Federalist Papers Again (Sorry)
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Friday Flotsam: Mostly Gun Control and Melancholy
1. Doing a little better than last week, though still struggling with melancholy and difficulty making myself be productive. 2. The shooting in Maine yesterday actually happened close to where my sister lives. She and all her friends are safe, thank God, but please pray for everyone involved and everyone in the area, who are … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Mostly Gun Control and Melancholy
Friday Flotsam: Mostly Sick and Depressed (Really Downbeat in this One)
1. About once or twice a year I get hit with a nasty cold / flu that knocks me out completely for a couple days (I'm functionally useless and utterly miserable) and then lingers on for some time after. Well, it's that time again. It hit me starting last weekend (just got to Mass before … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Mostly Sick and Depressed (Really Downbeat in this One)
Friday Flotsam: Mostly Grumpiness, Some History
1. A rather discouraging week; I had a few very productive days, but also a number of flops and didn't get as much done as I'd intended. 2. On Wednesday I spent about an hour working on a post, only to have WordPress's autosave function freeze and lose the whole thing just as I was … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Mostly Grumpiness, Some History
Friday Flotsam: Teaching, St. John Vianney, and Beavers
1. This week was training for my new teaching job. It looks like it'll either be an amazing experience or a catastrophic disaster. I guess we'll find out. 2. At the very least, I won't have to worry about what I should read for a while; it's pretty much all read books and discuss, and … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Teaching, St. John Vianney, and Beavers
Friday Flotsam: Depression and Loyalism
1. Had a big depression attack yesterday, though thanks to the progress I've made with a new counselor, it wasn't nearly as bad as attacks in the past. Previously, I would have been freaking out and in constant pain. This time it was just a heavy unhappiness and listlessness that made doing any kind of … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Depression and Loyalism
Friday Flotsam: Anxiety Attacks and Some Better Things
1. Suffered some major depression / anxiety attacks this week, amounting to pretty much a full break down. Been a while since I've had one of those. If you've never had a real anxiety attack, it is like your brain is short circuiting. As you approach the anxious thought / apparently unsolvable problem, your emotions … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Anxiety Attacks and Some Better Things
Friday Flotsam: Half-Heartedly Talking of a Good Book and Couple Charming Films.
1. Happy Feast of the Baptism of the Lord, and I'm afraid I have nothing much to say about it. Besides the obvious: "Behold the Lamb of God. Behold Him Who taketh away the sins of the world." 2. I've been oddly out of it this week, to the point that I forgot I even … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Half-Heartedly Talking of a Good Book and Couple Charming Films.
Friday Flotsam: Vita Nuova, Psych Matters, Rule of Life, and Killer Shrews
1. So incipit vita nuova. Of course it hasn't really begun; I don't start until Monday. But one phase is definitely over. 2. Today was mostly spent finishing up the transfer of files from my old computer to the new one. I'm trying to clear as many old projects or 'things that need to be … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Vita Nuova, Psych Matters, Rule of Life, and Killer Shrews
Friday Flotsam: Depression, Introspection, and History
1. Last weekend I had one of, if not the worst depressive episode I’ve every experienced, amounting to a full breakdown. I was pretty much riding on the aftershocks for most of the week, hence the lack of postings. 2. My depression doesn’t usually amount to feeling bad about myself; it’s more of feeling intense … Continue reading Friday Flotsam: Depression, Introspection, and History
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